Travel Thursday

I got up and was at the office for a few hours. But then the boss gave me the A-okay to head back to Miami with a production crew. If we get enough business, we can establish a new office down there. But I am hoping that the girls will start to realize that I would rather they be in New York. I think Tonya is already expecting this considering I have a full wardrobe waiting for her. Soon I will need to make Bree, Dani, and Olivia to agree to it as well.

I will figure it out soon enough. But like I said, I was traveling. I did not dress to the nines as you likely figured. Actually I switched out of my work clothes and dressed in rather casual clothing to get on the plane. Unlike before when the plane was relatively empty, I had a man sitting to my right and then a full row of men to my left. Casual clothing may have not been a great idea.

I am not sure if it is the fact that you are literally locked in a place with people for a couple of hours, but I think it changes people. Thankfully the guys in the other row could only look. However, the guy next me had decided he was going to make "accidental" touches. Never before have I felt violated and vulnerable. After the first time, he "rolled" in his sleep and grazed my breast with the tips of his fingers, I sat with my arms crossed for the whole flight.

And when he tried multiple times, his foot got abused. Casual clothes still means that I am wearing heels. So each time he would try to touch, my heel would accidentally come down on his foot. Eventually the pig learned that I was uninterested. The jocks on the other side of me seemed to have gotten protective. Their eyes were watching the guy next to me more than they were me. The pleasure of Southern boys was their sense of honor and they knew this guy was scum.

When the flight ended, I immediately stood up and grabbed my briefcase to march myself off the plane. What I saw out of the corner of my eye was the man next to me tried to stand before one of the jocks "bumped" into him. It knocked him from retrieving his luggage trapping him there so I could get some distance. It made me smile.

I got back to my hotel room and relaxed typing this message to you all.

-Carolyn

She Was Wilder Than Expected

You know when I started this whole teasing thing, I figured it was something that I started just to play on my own. Today while looking for my closet, I realized something. Carolyn had been a tease for a long time coming. Only a certain section of her closet had been containing the clothes that I had been wearing. The rest of the closet was with more teasing and sexy attire. Much of it seemed to be relatively new. To figure all of this out I checked out her purchases.

Each year, she buys a nearly completely new wardrobe from several different outlets and designers. The clothes she chooses seem to suggest teasing but not all are blatant. It all really depends on how they are worn. If a button or two is let down then she can go from professional executive to professional tease. I am not sure how I had not realized this earlier. I think it was more that when I had first become her my fear of what men to do just led me to hope she was conservative. Turns out that she was not as conservative as I hoped.

I think I will keep her wardrobe but not take my teasing too far like I had yesterday. I want to be professional and not lead anyone to have any extra ideas. The rest of Wednesday then proceeded regularly except for some guy from Marketing trying to drum up a conversation about what I do for fun. Luckily, I was able to turn him down by saying that I was going to Miami tomorrow and that I was not sure when I was getting back.

After that, I cleared the trip with my boss and got the tickets for me and the team. I will be headed off to Miami in the morning.

-Carolyn

Teasing Tuesday

So I came to work in four inch heels, a dangerously short skirt, and a somewhat sheer white blouse. To say that I got a couple of looks is a bit of an understatement. All of the guys seemed to have their eyes glued to my body as I walked through the halls. It made me giddy to know that I had so much power over all of these men. The seemed so distracted when I would come by their office. Very gently I would sit in the chair across from them and cross my legs. Instantly their eyes would go there. But they were not novices, they would play it off as if they were looking at papers or some such.

I made it very difficult for Jim. I came into his office carrying a folder. "Accidentally" I tripped and dropped all of the papers on the floor. Very slowly, I would pick them up giving him a bit of a look at the lacy black bra that I was wearing. He saw the slightest edge of cleavage as I had buttoned up one of the buttons since I planned this.

I thanked him for the help and gave him the papers to sign and sort through. All of the while, I had this girlish knowing smile on my face. He knew I was doing it on purpose. I could tell. When I very sensually walked out of his office, I could see the smirk on his face from a reflection off the door. Luckily he sees it for what it is and not thinking I want him or something. That whole I used to be Carl thing could be confusing. Oh wait it is not like he would know who I was. But still my interest in men is is non-existent. Just my body is the one that likes them.

But yeah, I went around my office being a very wonderful tease. I think tomorrow I will not be so blatant but I will still tease them a bit.

- Carolyn

Should I wear something like this next time?

Just A Monday

I went to work, home, and now I am sitting here at my computer. Nothing really happened today, the guys seemed to mope that they lost their money to me. I smiled and teased them a little bit. Jim seems to have thought my flirting was serious. That other part of me had sold it all too well. Now, he has these moments where he blushes when I stand at the door of his office, leaning ever so slightly to give him hope.

Sadly that hope never comes to fruition. My cleavage is nice and safe in my tight white blouse complimented by my push up bra. Still this whole thing has made me want to tease more. I unbuttoned a button on my blouse to make it just a little more challenging on the male folk around the office. It brings a smile to my face and makes my day to day life even more interesting.

Do you guys think I am a horrible little tease?

- Carolyn

The Poker Game

I arrived at the house on time, but they were still setting up. They tell people an earlier time so that they do not show up late but I had forgotten that. I helped them setup things like the table and the snacks. Jim was happy that someone actually was punctual, I joked and told him not to count on it every week. He smiled and shrugged. I was thinking that he was a little cute as I looked at him there in his garage. He and I were the only ones there for the moment which scared me a little. I held my ground and just chatted with him before we sat at the table on opposite sides from one another.

The others all trickled in about 10 minutes later. Luckily, I was not the only woman there. Samantha, a girl I had once considered a prospective girlfriend was there. But now, I looked at her and felt absolutely nothing. I thought that her outfit was cute but she could have coordinated better. Yet I am not sure those thoughts were not even mine, they were more the girl parts of me.

Still all of my friend were as competitive as I remember them to be. We were only using 10 dollars each but still everyone wanted to walk home with the full $60. Beer was drank, chips were eaten Carl was the first to get knocked out. Malik followed him out of the game and then there were 4. I am not going to say I was just cruising along at first as Jim seemed to be doing that. I was currently tied for second with Samantha.

Poor Calvin got double teamed by Jim and Samantha who both got him out in five more hands. They were predators, and they were really picking people off. I was bound to be their next target. I leaned back in my chair looking more relaxed. Time to use my autopilot to my advantage. Most people did not have an emotionless series of movements that required no conscious thoughts. So whatever tells they could have gotten just went up in smoke. I focused my attention over to Jim and then relegated myself to let her act.

The flirting began shamelessly, lots of playful smiles and psuedo-sexual motions began with me sitting at the table, playing cards acting against the two of them while outwardly seeming indifferent other than to flirt. It took me about 6 hands but I knocked Samantha out of the game. Jim seemed to be losing focus as she got a  little talkative with him. Slowly bu surely, his lead disappeared. And then 30 minutes later, he went all in and I won.

Not really needing the money I gave 20 each to Malik, Calvin, and Samantha. They seemed to be pleased with that. Jim was blushing as the flirting ended having seemingly been played by my words.

- Carolyn

Another day

Sarah had to do some stuff today so I had to make my own breakfast and stuff, it was no big deal. After I was all made up, I headed out to the office where I went through the usual routine. An old buddy of mine from the past stopped me in the hallway and commented that he wondered what was going on with me. I was a lot less friendly to the crew than I had been. It seemed like I had become all business. I was not really sure what to tell him.

I told him that there was some stuff going on with a good friend of mine, and that it was making me less inclined to just hang out and such. He seemed to accept the answer but still invited me over for the weekly poker night that I had been missing out on. From what I had gathered from him, I was still close to the people in my old department since I had been their manager for a couple of years before my promotion.

At least I will be able to use a girly excuse as to why I do not want to drink on Sunday. And I will not even be lying either which is the best part. What I really noticed was that my autopilot was not forcing me to flirt with him. It was giving me very receptive expressions and movements but not suggesting anything other than me going over there for poker.

Another little day in my life, time to go home from work.

- Carolyn

Business Is Good

Spent most of the day at the office, typing up things, scheduling things and seeing the pictures that Bree and Tonya were in. They were going to processed as soon as possible and then used for promotional materials for the company. My boss liked them and everything. Also he wanted them to both be signed on as soon as possible so their contracts were mailed off as well so that they could not picked up by rival companies. My sisters will soon be my employees.

What I find most interesting about those girls is that it seems like they always end up doing some sort of carnal act. Now I have no proof but the report from the photographers have told me that they seemed very comfortable with one another. They also were a little flirtatious during the shoot and seemed to give off the signals that they were more than just friends.

I am not sure how to feel about Tonya having sex with Bree. It is fine, just that I gave her someone to be with, I am not sure why she needed Bree too. It sort of makes the more protective part of me think that there may be a little more to the idea that she wants to help me.

*shrug*

I will figure it all out soon enough. But until then I will promote the two of them as the sexy girls they are!

-Carolyn

Autopilot And Me

Work has been super busy, I have a lot that I need to get through before I can even head back to Miami. It kind of sucks since I am hearing that there is quite a lot going on down there. But still I think what with the war the body and I are having that it is for the best. Today I did something that made me feel really relaxed, I did not just let myself fall into autopilot when I was getting ready. I did all of the motions that I had seen her make for weeks now. I put on the makeup myself. It was odd because it felt..good to do so. I think it is sort of a reward system.

If I do it myself then it will not do it for me and will actually make me feel good about doing it. I made a couple of mistakes but when I thought I was done, it fixed them. So it seems like it just matters if I am trying. This is an interesting part of this little predicament I have. I will need to talk to one of my sisters and see if I let it dip into autpilot and flirt to see how far it goes. And then when I take control if I can control how far it does.

I think that would be a good idea so that I do not have to avoid men like the plague. At work, I have become a little more friendly to them but it is still hard for me to be buddies with them just yet. So until I figure out this system, I will just continue to be the Cold Carolyn that they seemed to have named me at the Water cooler.

A Regular Sunday...

Regular blah of a Sunday, woke up and then tried to assert control of this body when I made to the bathroom. I was not going to let it get ready, but it pushed back. I stood there in front of the mirror looking like I was putting all of my effort in not moving. My arms felt like they were on fire, and eventually the body won that battle forcing the hands to work to putting on my makeup and such. In between the forced expressions, there was a dirty look on my face directed back at my body as if it could see how displeased I was with it.

After it was all done and things were put away, I walked over to my bed with a pout and crossed my arms not pleased that it seemed to keep winning every round. Part of me wanted to throw something but I refrained and just sat there looking at myself in the mirror. This is exactly why I do not want to even try something like sex, I am sure the body would get to have its fun. I would be forced along with tasks that I do not even really want to do.

After being in a pout for ten minutes, I went downstairs and had breakfast with Sarah and then went shopping for stuff. Electronics had been the love of my past. So I bought a new phone and shopped around for some other things. I had to play the dodge men game since I knew how this body would react. Do you know how hard it is to find purely female representatives in a electronics store? Let me tell you, it is difficult.

So after shopping and stuff, I came home and had dinner with Sarah. I did not learn anything new but she had remarked that she liked whatever change had come over me. So it seems there is still me in here. But that just got me wondering, what was Carolyn like in her day to day life?

- Carolyn

Slippery Slopes

Tonya came closer than I felt comfortable with today. She..nearly tempted me into something after I had been sort of teasing her with this new body of mine. The biggest issue is that I really know how to flirt with her because I am attracted to her, so that means that the body actually helps me do it. That is a dangerous combination as it got me a little to close to doing something sexual. I am not afraid of sex, I just do not want to go down that road yet. I need to be more in control, more sure of things before I let it happen.

Nothing was more clear than a few minutes ago where I had literally gotten Tonya to strip for me in front of her camera. So I still have the ability to control others but still it is my personal control that scares and eludes me. I mean I am more controlled than Bree, Olivia or Tonya, but still I need to be more assured that when I go down that road that I will be the one holding the reins and not my body.

To show my body who is boss, I took a picture without makeup:

Also, Bree and Tonya are going to be having a beach photo shoot tomorrow so the two of them can begin the modeling life. So at least in my professional life things are going quite good.

Good night lovelies!

- Carolyn