Regular blah of a Sunday, woke up and
then tried to assert control of this body when I made to the
bathroom. I was not going to let it get ready, but it pushed back. I
stood there in front of the mirror looking like I was putting all of
my effort in not moving. My arms felt like they were on fire, and
eventually the body won that battle forcing the hands to work to
putting on my makeup and such. In between the forced expressions,
there was a dirty look on my face directed back at my body as if it
could see how displeased I was with it.
After it was all done and things were
put away, I walked over to my bed with a pout and crossed my arms not
pleased that it seemed to keep winning every round. Part of me wanted
to throw something but I refrained and just sat there looking at
myself in the mirror. This is exactly why I do not want to even try
something like sex, I am sure the body would get to have its fun. I
would be forced along with tasks that I do not even really want to
do.
After being in a pout for ten minutes,
I went downstairs and had breakfast with Sarah and then went shopping
for stuff. Electronics had been the love of my past. So I bought a
new phone and shopped around for some other things. I had to play the
dodge men game since I knew how this body would react. Do you know
how hard it is to find purely female representatives in a electronics
store? Let me tell you, it is difficult.
So after shopping and stuff, I came
home and had dinner with Sarah. I did not learn anything new but she
had remarked that she liked whatever change had come over me. So it
seems there is still me in here. But that just got me wondering, what
was Carolyn like in her day to day life?
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